Letter to myself
Here u are Mr.Grunge.
Since your time just started maybe i should tell you a few things.
See?? That year of fire is not what u thought would be.In the end it proved to be a struggle between the old you, the one you tried to get back since 2001 and your experiences since then until now; the struggle between the child and the adult, the struggle between extreme innocence and those good instincts; the struggle between your brain and your heart.
Well... u managed to keep your innocence despite your instincts, those instincts that always served you well, the innocence you were so afraid u'll lose. You went so far with that innocence you even believed that message wich made you smile from the heart : "In any case... I'm not changing my heart this time." Your guts told you it's not true, at least not for more then a few days/weeks.
Who the fuck cares if it's said or written.These days that old saying "(Littera) Scripta manet, Verba Volant means shit, except on a damn contract backed up by a friking lawyer and some laws.
You also chose to believe it because your heart wanted it so bad, always did, even if several time your instincts and brains told ya not to, but you have to realize there are some things that can't go both ways at least for a decent ammount of time. I might be wrong , but history kinda covers it.
But not to worry "child". You managed to keep the good parts, the parts you were so afraid of loosing. U lost on the way your instincts, but if you're cool, lately it seemed they are slowly coming back.The world is yours and u just saw that yesterday and today.
Choose not too keep clouds in your heart. Everything that u hold dear, no matter the amount of the clouds over it, don't throw away, just put it somewhere safe inside and throw away the key.Don't let anything in or out. This way you'll always be ok and u'll stop judging people. You've had enough experience to do that. One way or the other with a person or another these kind of things will happen.Just keep your coolness, be fair and don't let anyone exploit what means beauty to you, intentionally or not.
Speaking about judging....it's kinda human but u've been rejecting attitudes and then even if you didn't realize u adopted them as well. You managed to hurt people......
The easiest way around this is stop judging, just take attitude when u are close to be hurt, walk away and don't ever hurt anyone, especially when those persons never let you down....
Sometimes you forget about the people close to you..try to minimize that, you'll feel better and it would be in accordance with your belief : "make sure you won't have any regrets"
Also play more- it's your style, always have been....but don't let excitement blind you - you'll hurt people - last year showed you that.
Also don't sanctify anymore...better let yourself be sanctified :) like you used to.
All in all you seem to be walking a good path. Off course it has some spots of grey and off course black, but from where i stand, at this point it looks promising.
And since u were reminded about going forward and leaving behind just do that.
Just walk forward and what will have to be left behind, will. Don't ever try to leave behind and then go forward - it won't work.
And remember always keep your mind open to the beautiful unexpected.You know it happens as long as you are yourself.
Walk on my friend :)
I'll just remind you once again about this beautiful song :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=smvj2_Vz5bQ
Since your time just started maybe i should tell you a few things.
See?? That year of fire is not what u thought would be.In the end it proved to be a struggle between the old you, the one you tried to get back since 2001 and your experiences since then until now; the struggle between the child and the adult, the struggle between extreme innocence and those good instincts; the struggle between your brain and your heart.
Well... u managed to keep your innocence despite your instincts, those instincts that always served you well, the innocence you were so afraid u'll lose. You went so far with that innocence you even believed that message wich made you smile from the heart : "In any case... I'm not changing my heart this time." Your guts told you it's not true, at least not for more then a few days/weeks.
Who the fuck cares if it's said or written.These days that old saying "(Littera) Scripta manet, Verba Volant means shit, except on a damn contract backed up by a friking lawyer and some laws.
You also chose to believe it because your heart wanted it so bad, always did, even if several time your instincts and brains told ya not to, but you have to realize there are some things that can't go both ways at least for a decent ammount of time. I might be wrong , but history kinda covers it.
But not to worry "child". You managed to keep the good parts, the parts you were so afraid of loosing. U lost on the way your instincts, but if you're cool, lately it seemed they are slowly coming back.The world is yours and u just saw that yesterday and today.
Choose not too keep clouds in your heart. Everything that u hold dear, no matter the amount of the clouds over it, don't throw away, just put it somewhere safe inside and throw away the key.Don't let anything in or out. This way you'll always be ok and u'll stop judging people. You've had enough experience to do that. One way or the other with a person or another these kind of things will happen.Just keep your coolness, be fair and don't let anyone exploit what means beauty to you, intentionally or not.
Speaking about judging....it's kinda human but u've been rejecting attitudes and then even if you didn't realize u adopted them as well. You managed to hurt people......
The easiest way around this is stop judging, just take attitude when u are close to be hurt, walk away and don't ever hurt anyone, especially when those persons never let you down....
Sometimes you forget about the people close to you..try to minimize that, you'll feel better and it would be in accordance with your belief : "make sure you won't have any regrets"
Also play more- it's your style, always have been....but don't let excitement blind you - you'll hurt people - last year showed you that.
Also don't sanctify anymore...better let yourself be sanctified :) like you used to.
All in all you seem to be walking a good path. Off course it has some spots of grey and off course black, but from where i stand, at this point it looks promising.
And since u were reminded about going forward and leaving behind just do that.
Just walk forward and what will have to be left behind, will. Don't ever try to leave behind and then go forward - it won't work.
And remember always keep your mind open to the beautiful unexpected.You know it happens as long as you are yourself.
Walk on my friend :)
I'll just remind you once again about this beautiful song :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=smvj2_Vz5bQ
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